The expression "bored to tears" has become all too real for me the past few months. I am an on-the-go type of person and have always found ways to keep myself busy. I still do. Yet in the midst of all the busyness I somehow find myself looking for more. I don't need more to simply do. I need to be able to put more into what I do. How is that possible? I could find a book answer. After all, everything is plainer on paper. Not to say writing or paper isn't real, but in reality, some things aren't so plain! Seriously though, what can I do?
I love to work. Work that I enjoy is therapy. I can put my heart, mind, and soul into it and be happy and content with life. (Have I ever been truly content? I'm not sure.) My problem is if I spend too much time and energy on work that I absolutely can't stand, I about go crazy. So many people could experience so much more fulfillment in life by spending their days working according to their unique interests and developing methods to more efficiently provide for their families. This would do wonders for individual initiative. Yet here we are, pouring tons of precious time and energy into something often quite unrelated to our family life or passions, just so we can make enough money to pay the bills...
Just thinking about it frustrates me to no end.
I want to find what God wants me to do with my life (which isn't really mine), and I want to do whatever that is with my all. Sometimes it seems hard to figure out what He wants. I know what I want, well, at least I often think I know; but to want what He wants - that is the highest goal - and, as a result, the hardest.
More later maybe. I'm too burnt to figure out quite how to say what I'm thinking.
This can be a struggle for men and woman in their vocation or calling, but the only answer Uncle Sam and I have come up with is that we are to be content with wherever God has placed us. Think of the hymn "Content to fill a little space if thou be glorified". Even as a wife and mom there are days where each day seems the same and it feels just plain thankless and tiring and yes, boring, (not every day of course!), but if it's where God has me at that season of my life, I need to be content and do my best to serve him there, wherever "there" might be. Unfortunately we don't all get to earn our living doing what we love (I've had my share of jobs I hated!) but that is part of the sanctification process.
ReplyDeleteLove,
Aunt Marcinda
God has you where you are for a reason. Don't despair of finding fulfillment or the ideal job situation. God allowed this struggle in your life because He wants to teach you and prepare you for the future. Are you putting your trust Him, seeking to be obedient, and surrendering to His will?
ReplyDeleteAlways remember, your life isn't about you. As one of His children, you are a chosen vessel to be used according to His purpose. We don't usually know what His purposes are in our lives, but we can find peace, joy, and contentment in knowing that He loves us dearly and has a special plan for each of His children.
Life is very daily for most of us. It is often very mundane and 'boring' and not always rewarding. Sometimes no one seems to appreciate you or what you do. But the Lord sees, and He rewards those who are faithful in the small things. You can always be a shining testimony, wherever you are, by living for His glory and resting in what He has given you for that day.
Love you!
Mom